Moved home in my mid 30s for a couple of months to reconsider career change and come to terms with myself.?

Yes, it sounds like you need an objective a goal to help you move forward. But please, do not get yourself down. You are young, very fortunate to have this opportunity of having time to take stock and sum things up. Do not dwell on the past, whatever happened there is just experience good or bad, it is b ehind you now and you are a wiser person because of it. That is what life is fundamentally, it is about experiencing things positive and negative. It sems the job is more important to you than where you live so start there. Look nationwide for work in your field and then consider posts that come up. Look on it as a game, a challenge, lets see what you can do. Get prepared by getting your resume updated, look at your wardrobe and get your clothes taken care of, make sure you pay attention to eating sleeping and expercise. Take the time to enjoy your family as you may be leaving soon. Try to find a way to calm your mind so the answers will be able to come to you, like walking or swimming. Don;t be complicating things by looking at women leave that for now. If you want to organize yoruself why don;'t you lay out a plan on paper.